The Inability To Do Math

Never have I fallen so low.
Or been pushed down to the ground.
I bleed from all angles
And the lights don’t flash fast enough.
The siren doesn’t howl loud enough.
You’re sightless to my becoming.
A little farther away from you.
My nose bleeds. My elbow’s scraped.
I don’t want to feel.
Fury and resentment boil up inside of you
And I’m the breath of oxygen that sets up the blast.
I am not here out of want sir.
Just let me finish and I’ll stay out of your way.
I’ll be gone before you know it.
I’ll leave you alone, everlastingly.