Your Ada, Forever Yours

I closed my eyes
pretending to be asleep,
hoping you’d follow suit
minus the pretending.

I turned and faced away,
praying your restless nature
would cease just long enough.
It didn’t.

You screamed
and kicked
and sat up
and tricked.

But then you cuddled close,
up against my back,
your little arm wrapped around me,
your Ada (Ah-DAH), forever yours.

I closed my eyes even tighter.
At this age, you’re chaos personified.
But I know this age won’t last,
which is why I soaked in the moment.

You moved your arm
to guide your hands
to scratch the back of my head.
My baby girl, forever seeking comfort.

I write this because I won’t always remember
how I felt in those few minutes.
I’ve just know I’ve lived most of my life without you,
yet I can’t imagine life without you.